Not What You Think…

There is a lot I would like to share although I cannot at this time. I will write more about it all when I feel comfortable with it. I can only say I am an avid researcher and biblical student; in the process over these 40 plus years I have been on many, many paths of which I believe were leading me to where I am now. I can only say I am shocked and astounded by where this search as brought me. Truth is stranger than fiction for sure…

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The Muddle Man

Thru the eye of the fog

Thru the eye of the fog

THE MUDDLE MAN

I feel I am living,

In a dream state,

How long has it been,

Since I’ve been awake?

I’m trying to rise,

How long will it take?

My mind is so muddled,

I can’t seem to think.

It’s all out of sorts,

All out of sync.

Oh Lord I’m so tired,

Confused and askew,

Please help me Oh Lord,

Tell me what I should do!

How long has it been?

I really don’t know.

Time seems it’s racing,

And then it’s so slow.

What’s going on?

Where’s my mind,

Where’d it go?

In this fog I am living,

My mind tends to wander,

The haze grows heavy,

As I sit and ponder.

Oh Lord I’m so tired,

Confused and askew,

Please help me Oh Lord,

Tell me what I should do.

Things all around me,

Are moving so fast.

I can’t keep up,

How long will this last?

I want to wake up,

From this dream I am living!

Disarray and derangement,

So many misgivings.

This is not where I thought,

I would be at this age.

I should be more sure,

And clear at this stage.

Yet here I am in this state,

Of darkness and haze.

Is this how I’ll spend,

The rest of my days?

Oh Lord I’m so tired,

Confused and askew.

Please help me Oh Lord,

Tell me what I should do!

I was once so sure, so clear and exact,

I was a standard of steadiness,

On each point and fact.

Where’d I go wrong,

And get so off track?

So now tho I travel,

A land of film-flam

I keep trusting You Lord

Tho I know not where I am

Daniel W Isrite

© ™Daniel.W.Isrite

A bit about me to get started.

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Let’s see, I have two of the cutest little Maltese dogs you ever saw. They are my constant companions and best friends. We are a team, we eat, sleep and play together. We take walks and have talks. We love to play fetch and eat treats. Life is so filled with joy to them they bounce up and down and run in circles they cannot contain it; so it runs over into me and I love it! They can make me smile when it’s the last thing I want to do.

I have written a lot about religious views, some poetry, some technical stuff, RVing, and general life experiences. There is no telling what I might write about on this blog. It’s just me Daniel W Isrite and my life; love me or hate me, take me or leave me, I am who I am. I like to express my opinions but I am teachable, open minded to a point, however some things are ‘in my opinion’ no-brainers and non debatable; at least it would be a senseless waist of time ‘in my opinion’. Although opinions are like passing gas; everybody does it, some just don’t want anyone to know it’s theirs. They would rather share someone else’s and hide behind whoever it might be they’re quoting; that way they don’t have to own it. You see a lot of that on Facebook and twitter. I suppose I do it too at times like everyone else; but then there are times I just let my words fly and tell the world what “I” think. Although I have written some things I wish I hadn’t; it’s kinda like toothpaste, once it’s out there there’s no putting it back.

I like reading although I am a slow reader. I have took speed-reading courses and tried all the tricks but nothing really helped me. Oh yes, I increased my reading speed dramatically according to the test but usually didn’t have much of an idea what I just read! So the thing about more retention and comprehension didn’t work for me. I listen to a lot of books with Audible while I’m driving and enjoy it, still, it’s just not the same as reading it. I also read a lot on my iPad, and Mac (the iPhone is just too small for me to read much) even so, digital reading is just not like holding a book in your hands and reading words off a page. It really doesn’t make sense, it’s the same thing, but not the same…? Can I say that? I have literally thousands of books in my digital libraries for different purposes (Mostly for study) I use them for reference for the most part accept for some titles on my kindle and iBooks account. Digital books also makes it a lot easier to copy and paste when I want to quote something. I have books on almost everything I could think of. I also have a large library in my study that mostly collect dust. I have so many interests it’s hard for me to focus on one thing for very long. Maybe I have ADD I don’t know. Then there are times when I am zeroed in on something like a laser and I won’t let up till I take it to a conclusion even if it means staying up till the wee hours of the morning. Sometimes I just need to know, ya know? My brain wont let me rest till I know that I know.

I like the outdoors and nature. I love being in the mountains, or out in the boonies by a lake or on a sea shore. This is why I like RVing. As a matter of fact that is where I am right now, looking out at the lake as I type these words. I used to ride motorcycles cross country and tent camp. I did that a lot until I had an accident at work that injured my neck leaving some nerve damage. I can still ride, but I like to ride big bikes and I don’t think it is all that safe anymore for me with the possible side effects of the nerve damage flaring up at 70 mph. with a 900 lb. bike under me. Maybe I should get a scooter… Anyway, I traded in the big bike and bought an RV, well, three before I got settled on one; kinda the goldilocks thing… RVing is what I do now whenever I can; which is pretty often since I’m retired. My wife is still working and I do have an elderly mother that needs me to not stay away too long so that kinda keeps me from only seeing life through the windshield and rearview mirrors for now. RVing is more than just recreation for me; it’s therapeutic and the perfect setting for the few things I can be productive at and I like to do. I could even see it being a lifestyle someday.

I am a Christian but I am also a thinker. I don’t believe everything someone tells me because they have some title or are standing behind a pulpit. I have even been behind that pulpit myself many times and many times I’m sorry to say, I was wrong, sincere, but sincerely wrong. The difference is when I am wrong I will admit it when it is proven to me that I am wrong; publicly if I need be. Many will not do this because their livelihood depends on being right or at least in agreement with whatever denomination is telling them what is right and or wrong. I was never in that position as I always worked at a regular job. Teaching and preaching was always something I considered a gift so I figured I should return the favor and make it a gift as well. I was put on a salary once but soon refused it. I cannot count how many different views I followed thinking I was right at the time, only to find later on I was mistaken yet again. Now? Well now, since about 8 months ago I decided that the bible is my only rule of faith and practice. Many will say that is what they adhere to as well, however, when confronted with an obvious discrepancy in their teaching as apposed to what the bible actually says; they will dance around the issue quoting from this commentary and that expert Dr. So-n-so, juggling words like a circus clown in a bin full of beach balls. Anything but admit they must be wrong; that is if the bible is their sole source of truth. Anyway, I’m off on a rabbit trail here. I’ll just say, if the bible says it, I believe it, if it says it’s right, it’s right, if it says it’s wrong, it’s wrong. I’ll just say I do not wear any Christian labels, I’m just a bible believer, Jesus follower, and kid of the King of the universe who thanks God everyday for His forgiveness. I’m sure I’ll say more about all that later.

So that’s a little about me and what this blog may be used for. Feel free to leave a comment.

Peace,
Daniel W Isrite